my words...

i felt like a stupid fool... mayb i was wrong all along e way.. shldnt haf done tis shldnt haf done tt... but why... if u tink u needed someone.. so do i.. i felt restrained.. i m a fool.. i had nv felt like tis b4... n i m feeling so stupid... juz feel like digging a hole n hide.. okie.. is all my fault... i m e one in e wrong.. i had nv done aniting rite in my entire whole life...

i had a dream... a dream tt i argue wif e ppl closest to me... i was crying bitterly.. but no sound came out... i could feel myself having difficulties to cry... panting heavily... i was like on e verge to die... i wish i reali did... n when i open my eyes.. i reali feel myself not able to cry... but feeling veri tight in my heart n throat... but soon tears rolled out... n i realise even in dreams i could b suffering... n yes... i like to bite myself when i m sad... i wish i could feel e pain physically... so i noe i m not hurt badly mentally...

"i wonder when will our quarrel end... actualli i already sick n tired of quarrelling with u on n off in a couple of days... i thought u are suppose to be the one to know mi the best... not i dun wan to spend time to pei ni but i have my work n studies too... u are also in ns now... why cant u jux understand.. jux now in the call when i say i can onli meet u once a wk n u can jux say back angrily then i go find another job lo... so i dun spend my time at hm... wat answer is tat... if u think u need a 24 hr stead... then sorri i am not tat type..... pissed off..... i m realli pissed off..... these couple of days had been toking through tis issues.. i wan get tis idiot problem out of my head... tears seem flowing on n off.......................... i cant stand it aniymore at times.................. i find the right person at the right time????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????"

i quoted tis frm my fren's blog... everi couple gt their own set of probs... but somehow all are alike...it all depend on e 2 person... r they goin to make e effort or r dey jux gonna let it b e way it is... a newly couple might b happi... coz they tot dey found each other... soon... dey had different opinions... dey tried to respect each other... but as tings goes on... ppl tend to b selfish... wanted everiting 4 emself... n dey started to tink 'y r u like tis y r u like tt... y cant u b more unstding..' askin 4 more from each other... some manage to pass thru tis stage... some stay e same... n some jux gave up... seekin a life wif someone else... tinking tt e nxt 1 might beta...

so wad's ur choice...