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~~XmAs XcHAnGE~~

YEah... xmas xchange is finally oVer... whaha... tHX 4 everione who participated!! n i guess lots of u got more den a present!! yeaAh.. so Nice Rite.. whaha... i m Sooo HappY... noT tt is oVer or wAd buT is OuR 1st EVENT!!!! wOOEoeoohOoooehooo.. !!!! whHAha...

thOugh a loT oF pPl r buZi wiF ASSgn n ClaymatioN.. IS okIe.. Ppl whO attEnDed i beLieve dEy enJoi emSelVes... kekee... Yea!!! tHx a lot eVeri BodY...
m So TiREz... goOna pLAy a biT of GaME b4 i Lie FLAt on mY bEd... miSS my bEd siA... whHaha...
m So HApppieeee....
looKin 4waRd tO wRk wiF dET peePs...

~ChEerS~
n MeRRY ChriStMaS~~

HoLidayS are CominG!!

wOott.. finally.. my drawing is done.. wif much effort... did my coloring e morn... damn lazi... duno wad m i doin...(i dun mean e assgn...) hmm..overall i tink is okie oni.. can be a lot more beta... but due to time constrain.. hmmm.. noting much to blog actually... but feel like a lot.. juz wanna blog... tis is e 7th week of sch... n i m left wif my storyboard... hopefully can passed... coz even if i m not doing my story... i duno who to grp wif.. someone juz take me in.. pls... whaha..

and e nxt ting tt's gonna happen... is e xmas tingy... streSS man.. hopefully noting COCKS up.. whha.. plS... hopefully u guyS can juX give me a gd Job.. n tt's it ... no mOre.. plS.. juZ 4 onCe i hopE... enuFf of thESe....

tErm BreAK is coming... n i hope i can spend my time wisely..

- Pack mY roOm
- Pack My wArdRobE...
- BuY grapHiRe..
- Buy eXotIQue (hinting 4 xmas gift) whaha.. i noe everione will ignore tis one.. sob sobz...
- buy D'artiste DigitaL paiNtiNG book... $90.82
- improvE my DrawIng..
- Do My asSgn...
1. MotiON GrapHiCs... week 9
2. ChaRactEr AnImAtiON... week 10
3. drawing??? so mani tings to draw!!!

now cant tink of any other tings yet...
xMas is COminG... but like notin much.. no Fun no notinG... felt like i m in another space w/o FRIENDS!!! wad is fren man.. hai...

tis is my final drawing.. looks kinda crap.. coloring like shit.. but i oni like e poSe.. kekee....

a CU... like shit la.. e hand is too DaRk!!!! hai...

ArrgGhghhh... sTreSs...

wTf... i cant install maya 7.0... know why... coz is CorruPteD!!!! tinK tt might b part of e reasON why my harddisk dun woRk at hm... soB soBz.... tRieD instAllinG mayA 6.5.. but e kEygEn is nOT wRking... haI.. so siAn man.. bhaKtA sICk.. no neEd shOw stRyboarD le.. but i mondae sure DIe.. if i duN do It nOw.. kEkeE..

toDae cReate a nEw nICk 4 my lecturer... wAnA acT dAo wif mE.. u suRe diE loR... n Now he's cAlled BABA in mY lisT... whOEver kNOws e mEaninG.. gOOd 4 U... thoSe hU duNOo, slOwly tiNk lor... hMm.. toDAe reAli tiRe... wAKe eAriL in e Morn 4 FreNCh cLAss.. buT frEncH clAss was OkiE toDae... din ReaaLi leaRn muCh toDae... n nXt week iS e tEst.. waD Duh... muZ stUDi 4 my FreNch... bUt nvM.. i lOve FreNCH... J'aimE FrAnçaIs... whHAa.. hHmmm..

kInda a Bit StrEss.. aFt wAd my siS toLd me... buT hoPefully KeNa... 300 bUcks!!! n i Can gEt all E art bOok i tt i Wan... whaha.. goNna pRay HarD... =P *whoEver who unstd... good 4 u...

goNna go do mY stryBd le... tMl goIng to sCh EARLY to do my maya assgn.. due tml.. hai.. tml 100 buCKs!! yEah!! thoUgh my aSsgn doNe 30% (only) buT tiNK will comPletE iT veri fAst... kk..

CiAo...
Au ReVoiR..

freaKiN lAzi...

haben been doin any ting todae.. except for register for basic theory test.. and goin to ta bao bak Ku TeH 4 my family... n baking a caramel cake.. (taste NICe SiA)... Arrgghh... i m so lazi... reali veri lazi n tire todae.. cant even lift my finger to start doin anyting at all... but lucky manage to redo my motion graphic assgn1... hmm.. i will say beta den my previous one.. but i m too lazi to make it even better... so muz try harder... plus i have gt lotsa ting to do.. coz nxt week gOOna b buzi week for me... gonNA b working foR like 4 dAys in a wEek... n i gt no time 4 all my aSsgn...

assgn to be done by tis week...:

- drawing research and final char design...
- char animation .. tt stupid leg to jump...
- french e-assessment.. OMG.. pRint color sIa... mUZ do at hm.. n A essAy in FRENCH~~~
- piTch... oMG.. stRy boArD DUe to tMl.. n i haben done a single box.. kekee...
- improvise motioN graphICs AsS 1.. kekee... (DONE!!!) finally someting tt i haf done...

so is like..1 out of 5 done... n i aint haf much time nXT wEek... buT 4 e SakE of 250 nXt wEek, i GUeSs is WOrTh iT... goNna buY lotSa stUFf whEn i hAf saVe enUff... kekE... oH... juZ rEM abt e artbook tt i mention earlier... $38.. i m gonNA buY iT... e Art oF dArKwAtch... kekee.. tiS is gOnnA b my 1sT ArtBook tt i hAve evEr bUy... (if any one of u juz know tt i m not a ARTS person.. StuPId Art!!!) i lOVe sCienCe...

hai.. so stupid of me to have chose tis course.. but wadever it is.. i m in... n i shld b happy of wad i m now... sometimes... when i took out my contact lEns... i seem to another pErson in Me... e oLd me... e oLd me wHo iS alwAyz so MotiVateD... wHen i wEar my LenZ... i couLd anothEr mE... somE onE whO iS conFidEnt?? Nah... my foot!~~~ crap Again...

FrEAkin TiRe.. n bUzi....

TMD... i m freaking tire n buzi... din had any gd nite slp at all since last week... juz something tt i wanna say ouUUuuuuuT LOUD!!!!

for those of u out there, if u tink u've done a lot... but in fact u didnt and talk lotsa crap... Den SHUTTTTT UPPPPPP!!!!! keep ur bloODY MOuTh SHuT n DO sOMe WoRK... gNikCuFeLoHsSa... dUn aCt liKe u R coMmiTtEed buT u R noT at All!!! bAcksTAbbErs!!!

dun even had time for anyting at all... where's my life... did i lost it or i din had any... someone tell me... i hate it man.. when i gt no life at all.. it feels like shit... arrggh... my leg is numbed again... pathetic... sian...

eLoHsSa OuT theRe, Ya'BeTtEr wAtCH Out!

in sCH... WaitIng... waItIng.. n WaiTinG...

alrite.. i m now in mac lab... came to sch todae coz was suppose to find ms amy for e model tingy ... for e sch posters... i ask ss to come along.. coz i paiseh.. kekee.. den took passport size photo .. den dey will chose.. so i guess i wont be selected.. whaha... ss sure kena one...

kk... den now was doin proposal... juz sent to bryandt n mic... suppose to do my french hw.. but ended doin e proposal... rcv a mail from mr eugene... is a book on the art of darkwatch.. feel like buying it.. coz veri chio lor.. n art inside all fantasy one.. kinda wad i like.. but i dun do.. keke.. but veri ex.. US 34.95. so is like sg $ 50++?? yah.. hai... guess i haf to go meet mr eugene now for e discussion for e caterer.. n other stuff.. oh.. n e skillful huntsman book... duno shld i buy a not.. coz is at a offered price of $38 now.. instead of $60... but so break lor... will c how...

gonna do my french now... tonite will try to blog again.. since ppll are sayin i m not blogging...

~Au rEvOir~

sHort ShoRt PoSt...

alrite... i understand i haben been bloging.. but is kinda buzi.. yah.. holi are over... buzi working and goin chalet n etc... so buzi.. n now is areadi week 2 since sch reopen. so fast... some upcoming events from sdn club... xmas xchange... n a so called arts festive from sch of design.. kekee.. but tt's in e distant future.. wad's else to update in my life..???

sch reopen... took french classes... got a french name... Chantal... kekee.. liked it.. France (eunice) help me chose one.. keke.. so funi lor.. but sway sway we diff class.. n i tink her class is beta.. e lecturer more humourous... n he teaches more.. unlike my female lecturer... hai... speak so much french in class w/o explaining e meaning to us.. haiyo... but french class will b so much more fun wif eunice..

oh... n last thur was her bdae.. me n dear bought her a 4 leaf clover necklace.. e 1st ting i tot is tt necklace tt we saw when we went 4 steamboat.. coz she said she like it.. kekee... so last week went down orchard to buy.. so mani design to chose.. but i chose e one tt we 1st saw.. a rectangle one.. nice lor...

oh yah.. suddenly juz tot of tis.. mr alex was our model for drawing class.. he so tall n fit lor.. den yest we commenting tt he gt a big chest... he damn fit lor... though he's skinny.. ren by ke mao Xiang.. den i 4get who made e comments but was saying his nipple veri big.. whaha.. but from we draw is quite true lor.. kekee.. no offence..

oh yah.. todae had a lecture wif ms lee n mr eugene... OMG.. hai.. all e tings tt eugene said was true.. felt more motivated todae to do well.. but aft a 3D test.. i felt demoralise again.. hai... when will i ever be good... or good enuff?? i reali hope i dun kena 1st or 2nd batch... only wish i gt wad it takes to be in there... or out there...

haiz...

AnoThEr INteRest.. wiLL it LaSt..

OKie.. as u can c.. my title.. shows tt i m interested something again.. which i duno can i continue it for long term...

todae went to work.. high tea buffet.. so was noting much.. juz tt dey had a mini fashion show.. which i tink e model shld reali go learn their cat walk again.. dey r walking so unnatural n i kept complaining to jj.. kekee.. he ask me go show em how model shld walk.. i was like -_-" fine.. keke.. i was kinda feelin wana go hm now.. when dey are having their fashion show.. mayb coz was discussing wif jj abt how no life i haf... den we even decided to go 4 buffet lunch or dinner at long jiang.. wif py.. chin.. n etc... i miss e times tt i spend lotsa money on QUALITY food.. now broke le.. no money.. keke.. n i miss my dear... he's now in m'sia celebrating his grandma bdae... hmmm... so i m veri bored during coz no MSG....

aft work i went to look 4 pAt... but who knows he went off liao.. he said he had dinner.. seHz... hai... den call sis ask her where she is.. den she said at JuROng.. wah>>> sehz again... den call bro... wHAHAaaa.. he's at taka.. n i m at parogon lor.... kekee... den went to look 4 him.. he's working... cameraman... 4 e NAtional Lion Dance Championships 2005... i was like duno wan to stay n watch ma... den i enter his work area... whaha.. e place where ONLY VIPS can sit... i sat there like i was one of em.. but i m not.. whaha... use my bro's pass as a shield.. kekee..

and so e competition started... tink tis is e 1st time i actually watched lion dance competition w/o tinking is bored.. mayb coz i m older now... noe how to apprecitate tings more... keke... =P so ...todae was like finals... there are 4 teams gonna compete... hmm... i m not gonna describe wad dey do but.. their stunts are real nice n natural... but i tink i prefer e 2nd team.. white lion... though dey gt 3rd... n e last was damn nice.. lots of challenge n it gt 1st... worth it.. oh yah.. might b coz e 2nd team was penalise if not dey might get 2nd... it was reali such a nice performace tt i felt joining lion dance.. whaha.. n bukit panjang cc haf lor.. moreover my bro sae he wanna join bak too.. he was in lion dance when he's in poly.. but 4 me is like i kinda miss those teamspirit wif no BACKSTABS... those reali caring n no fake buddies ard.. i miss tt.. or mayb i din had tt at all.. juz wanna feel those veri gd frenz n teammates.. no hard feelings be true n b real... k .. i m dragging a little too long here..

hmmm... juz my thoughts 4 todae... noting much... missing my boi now.. duno wad he do 2dae.. hope he's fine.. n i miss him so much.. got so much tings to tell him... okie... goin to slp now.. tml gonna go nata fair n c c... buy moon cake n work... sob SObz...

tis piece of artwork is done by Stanley Lau... n i m so inspired to do someting like tt.. muz jia you!!! u can find tis in www.imaginaryfs.com under gallery stanley Lau... other teammates work are also there.. Shawn Ye is from my sch.. but i tink he kinda private limited...

another work of Stanley Lau.. i juz love the brush stroke n color.. but e hand seems to be kinda big...love e eye lash...

another brush stroke work... i like tis.. cos is like e lady is dancing gracefully... oh No.. when will i be able to do sth like tt??? 10 yrs??

tis is nice too.. i like shadow n those fold... but e thigh looks kinda weird to me... so NiCE!!!! i wan b like him.... sob sobz...

This is GOOD!!

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* I was lazing ard again.. n i juz went to read yan han'S blog and kaPok this.. tis is interesting n i tink is quite true... kekee..

my words...

i felt like a stupid fool... mayb i was wrong all along e way.. shldnt haf done tis shldnt haf done tt... but why... if u tink u needed someone.. so do i.. i felt restrained.. i m a fool.. i had nv felt like tis b4... n i m feeling so stupid... juz feel like digging a hole n hide.. okie.. is all my fault... i m e one in e wrong.. i had nv done aniting rite in my entire whole life...

i had a dream... a dream tt i argue wif e ppl closest to me... i was crying bitterly.. but no sound came out... i could feel myself having difficulties to cry... panting heavily... i was like on e verge to die... i wish i reali did... n when i open my eyes.. i reali feel myself not able to cry... but feeling veri tight in my heart n throat... but soon tears rolled out... n i realise even in dreams i could b suffering... n yes... i like to bite myself when i m sad... i wish i could feel e pain physically... so i noe i m not hurt badly mentally...

"i wonder when will our quarrel end... actualli i already sick n tired of quarrelling with u on n off in a couple of days... i thought u are suppose to be the one to know mi the best... not i dun wan to spend time to pei ni but i have my work n studies too... u are also in ns now... why cant u jux understand.. jux now in the call when i say i can onli meet u once a wk n u can jux say back angrily then i go find another job lo... so i dun spend my time at hm... wat answer is tat... if u think u need a 24 hr stead... then sorri i am not tat type..... pissed off..... i m realli pissed off..... these couple of days had been toking through tis issues.. i wan get tis idiot problem out of my head... tears seem flowing on n off.......................... i cant stand it aniymore at times.................. i find the right person at the right time????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????"

i quoted tis frm my fren's blog... everi couple gt their own set of probs... but somehow all are alike...it all depend on e 2 person... r they goin to make e effort or r dey jux gonna let it b e way it is... a newly couple might b happi... coz they tot dey found each other... soon... dey had different opinions... dey tried to respect each other... but as tings goes on... ppl tend to b selfish... wanted everiting 4 emself... n dey started to tink 'y r u like tis y r u like tt... y cant u b more unstding..' askin 4 more from each other... some manage to pass thru tis stage... some stay e same... n some jux gave up... seekin a life wif someone else... tinking tt e nxt 1 might beta...

so wad's ur choice...

another day like tis...

help out in pencil n pixel.. noting much.. coz is same old damn bullshit... notin special.. coz is not organised....

aniway.. i felt tt sometimes a lot of tings can happen in jux 1 day... n 1 day actually not long nor short... but if u make gd use of it, it is defintely worth ur time...

tis week is week 11.. next's 12... n i haf gt e following hw to do...:

-3D modelling spaceship ex...
-web proposal n mock up..
-dsnv idea...
-cp NDP logo 2006 (due nxt week) + MTV logo + scrap book
-animation fat man skipping...
-drawing assgn 3 ideas n concept... due nxt week...

actually everi week i gt so mani work to do.. n i always do so little... felt tt i m like hai... duno how to sae... tink is i m disappointed wif myself... i juz hate myself...

BorEd.... n roTT^ng...

oh man.. i haf gt notin to blog..

erm.. went to watch bewitched todae... sch end at 2pm.. den watchin e show at 305.. kinda rush.. den went to eat at delifrance.. but den hor.. service kinda poor sia.. repeat my order so long den e manage like catch no ball.. hai.. qi gek ar.. den lucky i gt check e food tt she gave us.. short of one pasta!!! tt pasta cost me $13.95 leh.. den she nv put...!! wah kao.. i went bak in n tell her i still haf pasta.. can u help me check.. den she like continue to serve e customer duno gt listen one a not!! den me n dear stay down there n wait like iDiot lor.. lucky e manage (indian guy) came up n sae... : take a seat... i noe u all waited veri long.. erm.. so we are to gif u all a complimentary.. which is their drinks lor.. den i tot take away still not bad.. but is drink down there la.. den dear chose peace tea.. den i aniting lor... wah.. den i gulped down e whole class of tea lor... still feelin hot inside..
but e prob is not e time tt we waited... is tt she 4gOTTEN to put in e pasta!! lucky we check.. if not $13.95 gone le lor... but nvm.. still get it bak...

okie... watched bewitched... is a nice show.. sometimes i would tot how great it is if i m witch... coz i can become aniting i wan.. or change aniting tt i like... or juz b somebody... but e show is real nice.. though we din manage to charlie choco factory.. wan watch tt badly...

yest pei yong n rong kuan cycle down to my hse.. chit chat a bit... long time nv c em... RK is like rushin me 4 run to bukit timah hill again.. OH man.. tryin hard.. whaha.. but 1st i wan go swimmin!! duno y... recently juz gt e urge to juz go swimming n jogging.. but still din do it.. n weather is reali damn hot... i actuali tied my hair all day at hm... cant believe it..

aft movie went to look 4 mum to buy some tibbits... n ended helping her to carry stuff.... but nvm.. was playing wif dear.. guessing wad time will rch my hse.. ended both lost.. was kinda childish... but we are aways like tt.. hehee...

unload e stuff.. n we started playing striker 1945... used to b my strongest game... but din play it 4 like veri long.. n we play metal slug.. he kept tempting me sae metal slug 2 beta... i oso dun haf... how to play... tink tt's all....

now watchin america next top model... love tis show.. duno y... there was a period of time gt a urge to do fashion design... though e desire sustain... but will haf serious thoughts abt it... k... cIaO....

finally gt time to blog...

erm.. i noe i haben been blogging 4 a long time... i jux cant get used to everiday writting a blog... coz i might reali juz vomit out all my emotions at tt time... n i tink it aint a good ting to show everione..

1st n foremost... tis few weeks haben been gd 4 me.. i haf been chionging all my assgn n was kinda sick... reali sickening when u r tryin to do ur work n ur body juz dun listen to u... was kinda frustrated by a lot of tings.. ppl... affairs... n i m reali getting sick of nyp... DMD.... oh man.. feel like giving up ... coz i m juz not hapi wif everiting... n most imptly myself... tink e most worrying person would be dear le... hai.. sorri tt i was enclosed in my own world again.. sorri.. but i din mean it... juz cant help it.. i noe sometimes i m those who got probs but juz keep quiet... is not tt i dun wana share my prob.. is like so wad if i haf said.. is still gonna be e same... i rather keep it to myself n go thru it... but i noe u r always there 4 me... i noe u wan me to feel less burden n less stress... but e times tt i m wif u areadi lighten half e load... thX deaR...

okie... n 2ndly... term break is coming... OMG.. oni 1 week... n i haf got like 4 assgn to hand in when sch reopens... hai... n i haf gt 3 gathering during e week... n i haben start on ani of e assgn yet.. oh GoD... u r reali are watchin over me... aniway.. blame no1.. is me...

yest n todae felix came my hse... he's so CUUUTTTTEEEE!!!!! love him so much... so smart n cute... juz cant do aniting wif him ard... dey juz went bak not long ago... n here i m blogging... haben touch my animation nor drawing...

bro juz now called home.. .lookin 4 me.. whaha... suprise... coz when i ask him y.. he said: ' noting la.. juz tellin u i coming bak le.. will rch ard 10am in e morn... ' kekee.. tot he gt ting to ask me to do or wad.. kekee.. he's on another m'sia trip.. another island in north-east m'sia... hai.. tis time cant get to go wif him... i still can rem e redang beach n e blistering sun.. n my lobster skin... oh man... miss e beach.. n e vball... n of coz e snorking!! kekee... i wan go take scuba diving... when will i ever save enuff $$$$???? oh yah.. told him tt i wan to buy a external hard disc... n tink he quite supportive leh.. sae help me ask his frenz... *bLinK bLinK* kekee.. aniway.. i slpt on my bro's bed 4 the 1st 3 daes n i realise i cant get up on time.. n i m bak on my own bed... my sis's slpin on his bed.. lazi pig... muz warn him abt e bed... if not will collapse... whaha... S ) evil me... *grin*

kk.. tink i haf to sign off here...
ps: wadever i sae in tis blog is jus wad i wana sae..
if anione of u are offended.. den sorri...