我已经20了！

转眼间我已经20岁了！ 没想到20年就那么过去了。

每个人都好像问我想许什么愿望？说老实话，我自己根本没去想这个问题。也不知为什么，今年没想要什么。可能现在再问我的话，因该是想好好建立我的事业，希望能达到我要的目标。当然也希望家人开开心心，身体健康地。

还有一件令我的生日更像生日的事，五舅母原来邀请97。2电台的陈建彬来戏弄我。这件事发生在早辰，还好没什么人听见我刚睡醒的声音。这份惊喜真令我感到好开心！

谢谢那些祝福我生日的人。你们的心意已被收到了。还有大家所送的礼物。

朋友？

阴天

今天突然帮了好友卖115盒的月饼，觉得自己挺不错的。哈哈！老王卖瓜自卖自夸。今天不知为何心情挺不错的，希望能一直保持这样愉快的心情。有点破不期待的想提早加入健身中心。好想立刻去学愈加和游泳。可能是因为有同事的陪半会令自己更积极的想要参与课程。

我开始了解说人与人之间沟通的意图，大多数是出于想得到一些利益或是一想不到的收获。近来觉得人类都是丑陋的，就算你有许多朋友，你以为他们无时无刻会在你身旁，但是， 当你回头一看就连最亲密的家人也未必在你身旁。这种感觉好可怕，或则常在你身旁的人突然离你而去。这种恐慌的感觉是难以征服的。

明天终于又到了周末，希望会有一些好的收获。但愿下个星期会过得好一点。


人生中能有几个甜美的一刻？

some thoughts

is being some time since i last blog... hmmm quite a few tings happened.. last weekend accompany sis to see gynae, is amazing when u see the progress from a tiny foetus like 1mm to a developing baby of 10inch.. e beating of the heart.. the power of its life.. oh and yes is a girl.. kekee.. well whichever gender i will also dote..

meet up with jun jie, elaine, kelvin his girl, nawawi n his girl n lawrence.. well chris PS .. drown by mooncakes.. kinda feel left out.. cos everyone is couple couple... had dinner at suki sushi which i tink there is a funny smelly smell from tt restaurant.. aft dinner went to alley bar.. but switch to ice cold but due to jj young face we were turn down.. den went to somewhere near redevous.. had a bottle of red wine.. and we head down to MOS.. leaving kel n his gf off.. had a nice night over there.. ohh..

sunday went to watch 1408.. not too bad.. good sound efx.. haha scream a few times.. mayb cos i v long nv watch horror movies.. nice effects..

recently been tinking quite abit.. kinda feel the tension.. rash thoughts keep coming to me.. i dun feel happy at wad i do.. or do i need the time to adjust to it? today found out that sharon is wad i would like to be.. e path that she chose just make me feel more secure and confident of wad i m want.. but u'll never know how it goes.. the higher ur hopes are the greater the disappointment.. there are many things that people do not wish to anticipate or chose not to.. bcos they know that if it reali happen, is gonna hurt em badly.. or rather they will regret for wad they have done.. yah i dun tink i am happy bcos of how i tink and wad i chose to tink.. but i tink there are times to be optimistic & times to be sad .. so i dun like it when ppl tell me to be happi when i wan to be sad.. hope that everything will turn out well.. let's pray..

i live in e present now..

for the past 45 mins, i was looking thru all my past blogs.
realise how stupid, childish i was in my poly daze..
lucky now no more of that.. i guess each and everyone has their past, and most of it is greatly affected by who u mix with. which is reflected a lot on you.

hai.. just couldnt believe it. but well i tink ever since poly daze, i haf become my own self without being influenced by anyone or anything. being veri lucky since fusion, got a job that starts in april.. and switch to another one in june.. hahaa... but am glad to.. cos is a better one n a place for me to grow and learn.. i m out of poly for like 5 mths? time reali flies..

anyway, was reading this blog entry back then in Oct , which i threw temper.. aft reading it, felt so guilty and sad.. reali rude of me .. back then i was oni 18.. well ignorant & spoilt.. hai.. not anymore!

i walk home wif a heavy heart.. tinking of the tings that happened. was everything fated? if i haf a choice in e beginning, will i chose a different way? i hope i did.. n i will.. if not for all these shit.. i wont be like tis now. it marked a ugly dot in my life.. a dot tt i wish nv had been there.. tt spoilt e rest of my life. n tt ugly which i nv felt worth it at all.. if i can, i will kill e person..for all e shitty stuff tt had been done to me.. u knoe who u r..

i juz feel like killing everyoNE nOW.. on tis pArticular dae.. i haf enuff liao... keep ur fAt MOuTh sHUt~ who do you tink u are.. i had enuff OF u n ur NOnsEnsE.. i canT waIt to mEet PY.. i m ExploDing.. but WadEVer u haF doNe to mE.. i wiLl mAKe suRe u will reGreT.. mArked mY wOrds.. u - - - - -